Sunday, July 09, 2006

Is it really positive??

So, I have been peeing on those dreadful home pregnancy tests! I bought a few from the dollar store, for just $1...apparently they pick up the earliest!

I did one yesterday and after a bit, I THOUGHT I saw the faintest of faintest lines! After a long while, I went back in and it was pretty much clearer, but still EXTREMELY faint! But, even hubby could see it without standing on our heads and making our eyeballs go googly! And a surrogate friend stopped by yesterday and even she could see this faint line without contorting it or herself.

That would mean I would think the line would be darker today......but again, it is extremely faint. When I was in the bathroom, it looked as though it could be a shadow, but when I took it to the kitchen, and set it on the counter, it was pretty distinct, but still surely VERY VERY VERY faint!

Not sure WHAT to make of this! I told hubby to hide all the rest of those stinking pee sticks from me and not let me test ANY MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They have me second guessing and it is so frustrating! He and my surrobuddy tell me it wouldn't even be faint if SOMETHING were not there, but not seeing it darker ticks me off!

I'm pretty convinced if I am pregnant, it is not multiples, because surely it would have been darker and showing today! Then again, it is still 4 days shy of the bloodtest, which is the earliest they like to do anything or see stuff! So, here I sit, on pins and needles, hoping and praying!

My couple is so so sweet, and I can't wait to share excitement and joy with them. Especially it being their first baby! This is going to be a great journey and I am so impatient, I want the excitement and joys and smiles to start NOW NOW NOW!

Lord, Grant me the Serenity, to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference! AMEN!!!!!!!!!!

1 comment:

momteacherfriend said...

Patience my dear!